I guess you could all say this is quite an important journal.
I was talking to my therapist and considering all the stuff we talked about in that hour, we came to the conclusion I have an addiction. Don't worry,, it's not about drugs or alcohol. ^^
We talked about what my daily routine was for the past days, weeks, months and years and when my therapist asked that I couldn't answer. I was thinking and thinking and came to realise that when I wasn't at my volunteering job the only thing I did was sitting behind my laptop. My therapist asked me what I did when I used my laptop and I again didn't know what to answer. He asked me which sites I went to and I told him that was deviantART, Twitter and Facebook. Nothing less, nothing more. He asked me how much time I thought I spent in my digital world and I answered that aside from sleeping 5 hours and going to my volunteering job for 4 hours I spend my whole day behind this screen. If you do the math,, that's 15 hours a day. Which is rediculous!
When my therapist heard that, they told me I have a severe social media addiction and if I wouldn't stop this right now, my real life will totally collapse and I will become isolated from the real life,, which means losing the friends and family that care about me and not being able to or hardly being able to return to society.
My therapist told me it needed to stop right now and I am only allowed to be on my laptop for 1,5 hours a day from now on. I can keep my phone, which has apps, but I have to get rid of my tablet and when I'm not using my laptop it has to be out of my sight, in a safe, which I am not allowed to know the code of.
If I want to use my laptop I have to go to the person who knows the code and they'll open the safe for me. My therapist also told me, if I keep the laptop for more than 1,5 hours a day, I am not allowed to use the laptop the 3 days after I did that. No exceptions.
So,, the conclusion of this story is that I won't be as active as I was before, I might reply VERY slow and I will not be able to submit much deviations anymore. I will try to work on my to-do-list whenever I can. Commissions, Art Trades, Requests and all of that will be closed from now on until I can say I overcame my addiction.
Please.. Do not take it personal when I don't reply as quick as you would want me to. I will try to reply to everything, but I need to figure out my priorities and comments will probably not be one of the highest.
If you have something important to ask or tell me, please note me. Because I will check my notes every day, which means I might be able to reply to them that same moment. But please be aware I do not promise you I will reply to notes within 48 hours, but I'll try my hardest to do so.
Thank you all for reading this. I think I told everything, but if I realise I didn't I'll try to edit this journal as soon as possible.